365 Colored Days

Graduation Vibe

I don’t really know how to start a post normally and how it’s supposed to start if there actually was a format on how to start a blog post but then hey, I’m here typing now and I think it’s a fairly acceptable start.

The thing is, I don’t know… I’m beginning to feel weird about leaving high school. :( So, yes. I’ll tell you first how this feeling started though I’m not really sure where but then I’ll take a pretty good guess and it started last week, I think.

We were having the Electoral Board HELL WEEK as we’ve called it and had to finalize the application forms and interview the applicants, as well as deliberate on their character, leadership potential, and their overall IT factors which definitely wasn’t easy because they were 30+ applicants. Not that I’m complaining at all because I love my work. I love what I do and I love the SEB, as well. Looking at the timelines we’ve set up, I realized there’d be only 2 months left of the school year, minus the days we have our weekends, take our exams, and attend our other upcoming events such as Threshold Moment ‘12 and our Graduation Ball.

Then, something inside me just clicked. Although it’s obvious and we’ve been going over and over again with it, my mind just caught up with everything and then poof. “I’m graduating.” These two words changed me. Or at least I felt it did. I’m more determined to give the few remaining days that I’m going to be at school my all. I’m going to smile at everyone I pass by, going to greet my teachers a very good morning and afternoon, solve my problems with other people, and try my best not to be late or absent anymore. I have doubts though that the latter part of my statement won’t be fulfilled because… That’s how I roll.

This is the time to make sure I’ve left my mark not only in the school but also in other people’s lives. I want to make sure I’ve affected the people I see everyday in a positive way and that I’ve contributed somehow to their well being. I want them to know that I’ve also realized my mistakes… The multitudes of mistakes that I’ve committed and that I’m very sorry for them. I just want everything to be at peace when I leave. No bad feeling whatsoever inside of me. 

Basically, what I’m trying to say and what I want to accomplish by writing this is that I know that this is it. We’re never ever going to go back to these moments of knowing secrets that others don’t. Those moments gossiping about something you heard in the bathroom, going to the library before exams to chat with the librarians, having mini photoshoots at the grandstand with your barkada, having a barkada, getting to know new people even if we’re 4th year because the school’s just so huge, stressing over batch cheering, the excitement ringing through the corridors once you know classes are going to be suspended for the day even if there actually isn’t any rain… These experiences are one of the many things I’ll miss about high school.

I’m not sure about what awaits me after graduation but I’m sure I will never ever forget my high school. It’s like I found treasure through these years with the friends that I’ll have for life. I know that even if we leave and go different directions, we’ll always find a way to catch up or see each other because my friends are the best.

So there. This is my very first blog about actually feeling like a 4th year student now. I’m not sure if this’ll be the last but then we’ll see. Speaking my mind here seems relieving after all the stress we’re going through now. Well then.

I hope you had fun reading this because I had fun writing it. Happy thoughts and light hearted feelings!

Love,

Marina. :)